So, here we are....

Good morning,

So, here we are again, today is the 5th anniversary of September 11th. For me, it's kind of a tough anniversary to expect to roll around each year, but we have it, and always will, so it's one of those things we'll all have to learn to live with I guess.

When I think of that day, it brings back a hint of the many of the emotions I was feeling that day, confusion, fear and concern for my family members who worked in the area where the smoke was coming from, then the anger when I found out the cause of my city being thrown into turmoil, more anger when I saw the old ladies from my block hugging together crying while they looked in the direction of the smoke and listened to the sirens in the distance, my anger turning to hate towards those who would do something like that, and who would scare old ladies. The sound of fighter jets crackling high in the sky above, added to the feelings of uncertainty, though of course we all knew they were there for our protection. I remember the faces of the people when we heard them, I saw fear, real fear, and I can tell you, if you ever have a chance to see the look of real fear, it's an awful thing to see. It's one of those things that stay with you, the fear passes as does the anger to some extent, but the images stay. Even at this moment while I type this, I still remember those faces, and it reminds me of the sadness and anger I felt that day. May none of you ever have to see anything like that.

On the anniversary of something like what happened, a little quiet reflection would help, but the way it seems all of the television channels put on their own version of "let's relive the moment", it kinda creeps me out. I, and I'm sure so many others will never forget how they felt, and where they were that day, but do we actually need a "complete re-broadcast of NBC's Today show from September 11th, 2001"? I don't want to forget, and I'm certain I never will, but I don't want to relive that day.

If you're going to watch any of the television presentations about September 11th today, I highly recommend watching an HBO presentation called "Through a Child's Eyes: September 11th, 2001". Talk about putting the whole situation into perspective, the kids on that show told a refreshing truth. Though some of the stories are so sad, the show leaves you with a feeling of hope because of how those kids have overcome so much. May they all have the very best in life.

So, here we are, I've seen my one show on the subject today, I'm sure I'll quietly reflect on my memories, I'll call my family to tell them I love them, I'll say a prayer for the families of those who lost someone or who has someone away at war. Truthfully, it's exhausting to remember too much from that day, but it's also a bit troubling to see the commercialization and exploitation of the day for whatever reason. Political parties using this day, television using this day to sell commercial advertisement time, it just doesn't seem right to me.

I believe in honoring those who died that day, many were heroes, all were undeserving of what happened to them, their lives taken too soon. I bow my head when I think of them, and say a prayer because I don't know what else to do.

May their families find peace in their hearts, may God send an angel of hope and compassion to be there with them during their most trying times. It must be especially hard for them on this day, I hope they know there are people out here who actually care about that.

That's what this day means to me, a jumble of emotions, not as strong as what I felt on that day, but still there.